I really think Cody and I won't last to much longer. It just seems like he's bored with me. He thinks I'm to shy around him and won't open up. True. But when I'm not full of energy I not talk much. And I tell him I've always been that way but thinks I should open up to him after 8 months, yes I know I should, but I easly can't do that I hold my feelings back.

         And there is somethings that drive me crazy about him. I asked him to be in chior with me, well he did. But he is sitting next to a ex-best friend of mine which we became friends again this year. And everytime I look he's talking to her, not saying anything to be for the whole period, unless I get his attintion. Also when he thinks somethings wrong just because I'm not talking and keeps on asking me. And when he says it seems I don't want him around.

        I really don't think were going to last no long then until next month.